this post is to someone who i don’t even want to deal with anymore…

are you seriously that hard headed and jealous?! do you really not trust me that much that you have to go and put all your sh** on Facebook!? i thought you were different, but i guess i was wrong. you’re a dumba**. you seriously need a reality check you know that?! do you know how much i care about you?! you really need to grow up. it’s not even funny anymore. i’ve been letting you get away with so much, yes you know i do. i let you get away with whatever you put on Facebook. are you doing all of it on purpose so i pay attention to you more?! OPEN YOUR EYES!! do you see what i’m doing for you!? i wear the thing you gave me every day and this is how you repay me? is this really how you feel? seriously, grow up! you’re not a kid anymore! are you that mad at me?! 

do you know how much i miss you? do you know how much i cry because i miss you? i want to be there with you but you know i can’t do that. my family is here too. you just gotta deal with it. if you can’t, then why the hell are you still here?! are you still mad at me for not telling you?! NEW FLASH! you weren’t completely honest with me too! what am i supposed to do when i get back?! what should i expect?! do i come back with open arms? i seriously don’t know you anymore. in fact, i never really knew you. every single fu**ing time i see a post on your Facebook, i always see something that pisses me off. actually not just me, my mom also. she sees how much i care about you and this is how you show your love for me. 

i don’t know you anymore. i used to see you as the person i’m gonna spend the rest of my life with and now, i don’t know. i’m torn. i’m still letting you get away with stuff. i tell my mom “just let him do whatever, he’s a big boy”. i tell myself lies so i feel better. 

what should i do now???